Independence.

I don't know I was taught 2 things in life by my mother. 1) Be independent, study and learn to maintain yourself.
2) If your with a man, he needs to maintain you.
How does that work?
I'm so impatient.

Expectations.

How he expects me to stay skinny ...

Mmmmmm The Melting Pot

I'm very happy my boyfriend took me there I love him <3

Mmmmmm The Melting Pot, early birthday gift ^.^

Passed all my classes!

:) :) :D :D its so amazing I feel amazing !

Pool day last Saturday :)

Pink nails :)

Finally got a stereo :)

My life doesn't suck, I'll just take a pill and get over it...

Honestly, my luck to have a father that doesn't give a shit and doesn't call me... and doesn't care to ask me how I'm doing... judges me and criticizes me... who the fuck does that like seriously??? You have a to be a real douche of a parent to not want to help your own child. I'm lucky to have my mother and my brother... because my father is a fucking douchebag and doesn't ever want the best for me ... what father complains about giving money to their daughter for school? or lunch? or calls her fat? or tells her how fat she's getting... when she looks normal... and healthy... maybe a bit chubbby but regardless happy!
No one in my family except my mother, my brother, my stepdad, and my aunt (when she can of course, but it counts!)
Do you think anyone helped buy me a car so I can drive to school?
No
Do you think anyone so far has helped me pay for school?
No
I'm getting a loan... because I want to study. Fuck everyone who doesn't want to help me... when I make a good amount of money they're not going to hear from me... only the people who helped me along in life will I be grateful and will I dedicate my time and effort to.
A man who cares more about friends, and strangers... than his own family! is a fucking disgrace! I'm not going to care about someone who doesn't care about me enough to fix up an old car and offer it to me, or doesn't care to give me a little help every once in a while. I'm not going to kiss someones ass for money! I'd rather earn my own money!!! I pray for a job, a good one, that will respect my hours for school... and pay me a decent wage so I don't have to depend on people that don't really care about me...
Hey how's school??? no ... it's more like wow... look at how fat you are!

For a week now

I went to the gym last Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, then Saturday and today Sunday I feel so fit and healthy and I feel that the new gym that I'm going to is just for me and I feel right and very comfortable :) I love it! It makes me dedicated and motivated and having people to go with really makes me more likely to go to the gym
So my schedule for the upcoming week may be, Monday, in the morning around 1:00pm  and later on at night or both, Tuesday is break day with yoga and stretching, Wednesday I will go at 1:00pm or at 9:00pm, Thursday yoga and stretching and Friday in the morning around 10:30am and Saturday at 10:30am and Sunday at 11:00am and so on, now it all comes down to my diet

What helps me get through the day :)

Makes me happy :)

My new wallets :)

Nails pretty :)

I can't wait until this semester is over ...

:( I have to get a loan or something for next semester but I really need the boost in credits and g.p.a so its worth it, and I want to go to F.I.U ASAP and maybe I can use the financial aid money from the summer of next year for banking classes or some other vocational courses :)

They say you need to do something about 20 times for it to become a habit, so that is what I will do! A 20 day challenge! Exercise minimum 30 minutes every day !

Healthy lifestyle

I realized that a healthy lifestyle is the best way for me to get the most out of life ! I want energy! I'm 18 years old and struggling with my weight imagine if I don't change my lifestyle how unhealthy I will be ! I care about myself, I care about my life, I care about my health and now is the time to start proving it and from now on I will learn the importance of eating the right kinds of food in the right portions! Let the journey begin!

It's me and the world vs. the people in it.

So fucking bored! Homework, clean, homework, watch a movie on Netflix... homework, clean, watch a show on Hulu.
 Like seriously why is it that my life is only fun when I make the most irrational decisions, I want to get out there and do something! anything! fucking go to the beach just to look at the sky or just walk around and really take a good look at this world and its beauty that is taken for granted every single day because soon it will be gone just like every single person on this earth will sooner or later be gone, the knowing sense of destination, we all die sooner or later!
Did I get the chance to look around and enjoy the beauty this wonderful earth has to offer? the oceans? the cities? Did I even just go out one night just to look at the stars that were bright that night? Did I even notice they were there? Its fucking bull shit how some people would rather enjoy a man made experience such as a video game for example,  than earth itself  and the human interactions of the families they have and the loved ones they have beside them.

Career

"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
"What's you major?"
Everyone asks this question, and honestly I really don't know and if I don't know this is a problem because by now I should know. Everyone that is successful has a target, a specific target.

Everyone says it, everyone knows it

A conversation with a buddy of mine yesterday went like this, I said to him," I can't wait to go to school tomorrow!" I was excited. He said, "School? Why are you  excited about school? ew!. "Well I love school, I really do."I said. He responds, "God I can think of so many other things I would rather be doing than going to school". I thought to myself, I guess not everyone understands how much of a privilege it is to attend college.My whole life I have always loved going to school, anyone of my family members can truly say that even when I was younger I would rather be at school than at home.This is how I see school, or actually I see college more specifically, it's no longer a right to go to school that right ended at 16, from then on it's a personal choice and decision whether or not to attend school. I said this to him, "I love school which is why I go to college", and I also thought to myself , it doesn't even matter what my major is because I'm interested in knowledge and learning that is the true reason I attend knowledge I seek to know more, I seek to learn more and more everyday and as long as I learned something new it was a day well spent in my life. Everyone that I know that says they hate school aren't exactly the most successful. The feeling that someone gets when they go to the gym, exercise and eat well and they start seeing results that is the feeling I get when I go to school, I see results and then I feel good about myself, I have knowledge that no one can take away from me. But it's very much like exercise and staying fit and healthy, knowledge is something that you must open yourself up to every single day. I love the feeling of understanding a new concept, new discipline, new strategy, new terminology, new words it is such a satisfying feeling.

Happy New Years!

This year I will 

*Lose weight

*Get in shape

*Eat Healthy

*Get good grades in school

*Be the best WoW player ever!!! :) 

*Keep my room clean

*Manage time more wisely